Friday, December 31, 2021

I Don't Mind What Happens

A life spent not minding what happens is admirable. In the last 22 months, we have lived with a pandemic that has changed our lives as we knew them. From wearing masks to standing 6 feet apart, to dining in with takeout rather than risk the public in what once was preferred dining rooms; our old-world ways pre-March 2020 are but nostalgic memories.

So I have decided to stop thinking about the next chapters in this seemingly never-ending pandemic or if indeed it will become an endemic soon. We last traveled in January 2020, so we have a great memory and we do miss the annual beach trips. Not gonna lie. But I am at the point that the angst that comes with reading the dailies is not worth it. So a declaration is in order today.

On this, the last day of the year I herby make a promise (pinkies not crossed) to not mind what happens. Wish me luck and Happy New Year to you wonderful readers!



Thursday, December 30, 2021


 "An expert is someone who, over many years, manages to remain confident enough to keep trying and humble enough to keep learning" Author unknown.

Was smacked with this wonderful quote today as I wrestled with the writing demons. My intent was to get back at putting fingers to qwerty and attempt to rekindle the idle grey matter. So what does remaining confident whilst keeping humble have to do with "letting go"? 

Winter arrived this past week and I was thinking of how the trees in our part of the world simply let go. How they like clockwork and without grief (as far as I know) shed their leaves and go into a long slumber before a renewal. Today with little fanfare I started on a path where I want to imitate the trees. Learn to lose things to be a better person/husband/father/grandfather/friend/volunteer. 

Part of accepting that to become that better person, we have to learn to lose, like the trees losing their leaves every year. Nothing stays the same for long, not pain, not sadness, not depression, not elation. It all will pass in time.

Today I decided that I need to Let It GO and move forward. Knowing now that I have no responsibility to live up to someone else's expectations of me, I will spend as little time as possible chasing other people's desires instead of mine.